It’s hard to believe that I’ve only had my blog since 2009. It seems like I’ve had it much, much longer than that. I wonder if it’s because I think my life is so far away from what it was then.
Like, damn, 2009 was a really crazy year for me. Literally. I was a little crazy. And insecure, and really, really, really hard on myself. It’s weird being able to look into the mind of myself going through things. Like, it’s kind of surreal.
The weird thing of it is that I know that I was just kind of planting the seeds of all the changes was going to make. And there was no “aha moment” or any cheesy bullshit like that. One day (today actually) I just realized that I had done it. I’m different.
It’s really fucking weird.
And it’s not to say that it was easy by any stretch of the imagination. It wasn’t like, “Oh, I want to be different and some day I will be.” No fucking way. It was work, and it was hard, and the road to today was lined with break-downs, set backs, heartbreak, and fear.
Anyways, I guess Mazel to me.
